For the last fifteen months I have learned a great deal about myself. I’m grateful for the support which helped me get to where I am today. Yet, there comes a time when we all get to a point in our lives to face the world – independently. We grow up and have to take the reins in our own lives. Personally I’m at the place, I can’t ignore it and I’m a little scared.
The title can be a little misleading but this is how my alcoholic mind wants me to think. Ideally, it wants me to believe this “impending doom” is about to happen. It’s not, at least for today. Instead, if I concentrate on what I need to do today to stay sober and move forward in life, I’ll be fine.
After months of attempting to arrange for classes to obtain a Certified Recovery Peer Advocate, I came to realize the process is just not going to happen. Instead I was given information about a complete free and alternative way to work in the recovery community. Therefore, I started online classes through the State of New York to become a Peer Advocate. I’m attempting to complete at least one module a week. But at times, even that can be difficult.
Two gentleman who recently came back to the area for recovery have also asked for my assistance. One came from a long term prison sentence. Another, I sponsored in the past, he relapsed and recently came back too. It appears to me these people were put in my life for a reason. I need to learn from my past and do something differently this time around.
Lastly, I hope this whole dental situation can begin to come to an end tomorrow. I have an appointment with the assumption to get impressions for a denture. Yet, in the back of my mind, I distinctly remember the dentist saying, “We need to get the rest of your teeth health before we place that denture.” I have a few cavities, I haven’t had a cleaning in a while and she insists this all be done first. Based on my situation, I just need to be honest explaining the priority right now must be the impression for the denture. While I wait for the denture to be manufactured, I have no problem coming back in multiple appointments for the rest of the work. We’ll just have to see how it works out tomorrow.
All this stuff at once can be overwhelming, if I let it. But if I just concentrate what I need to do today, it’s another story. It’s quite easy and my serenity stays in tact.