It’s a new day (for me) so let’s see if I can do something different. Not to my surprise I was back in dairy last night. Had several appointments when I got home from work. Didn’t get much alone time before it was time to go to bed. I was just so exhausted.

I have a new therapist which I speak to on a weekly basis. He’s trying to help me with the various difficulties I am having in life right now. It’s nice to be able to talk to someone and get their suggestions to how to change things around. So I’m going to “put blinder’s on” at work. Not literally. The suggestion was NOT to worry, get angry or frustrated at the who, what, where or how things are going at work. Just do my job and go home at the end of the day. It won’t be that easy. But I can try. I’m willing to try.

There is so much clutter at home it’s beginning to bother me. I just can’t find the time or I just don’t want to do it. I just keep making excuses. There isn’t any reason I can’t do one thing (clean the kitchen or another room in the house) instead of playing my game on the computer. I have to get in a mindset – there are more important things to do in life. The game will always be there when my other responsibilities are done first.

I don’t know where I’m going with this. I just need to make changes. Not matter how small, it’s a start.

I hope tonight I can “put the blinders on” at work and leave in peace. Then when I get home, I can do one small thing. Just take small steps at first to get me in a routine.

That is all for now…