Over the last couple of months, I have posted more personal entries, as well as the regular readings. I did not realize the number of readers I have from all over the world, so I made a slight change. I also appreciate all those who have used the Contact Me page to send me a personal email.

My therapist recommended scheduling things throughout the day. Currently, I do things on the fly; I do things when I feel like it. That is going to change because I get so scatter-brained throughout the day, I forget things <-which I absolutely hate! For instance, I thought I paid my utility bill. Thankfully, I was sent an email stating it was NOT paid (Grrrr!). So, I have one thing I need to get done today before anything else. Make that calendar and stick to it.

WordPress posts are in chronological order. I have changed the daily readings to post at 12:05am GMT. Why the change? Now that I think of it, I’m not sure. Perhaps I’ll create a poll on the site to ask my readers their preferences, or look at my statistics to find out where most people are reading this blog. I will change it back to 1205am EST (-400 GMT) until such time I determine otherwise.

Going further, I will continue to post personal entries. Both alcoholics, addicts, and non-addicted people read this page. That is the primary goal of this site. As mentioned above, posts are in chronological order, so personal entries will appear above the daily entries. Perhaps in time, I can put personal entries somewhere else (i.e. Personal Entries). I am just not sure how to do that quickly.

The support from this site has been enormous. I greatly appreciate it. Comments and emails through Contact Me are all appreciated. Just a note – comments are moderated (I have to approve them), thus they will not post immediately. However, I do get an email and usually approve/deny as soon as I can. Many have expressed their own experiences and offered support via phone and/or email. Thank you again for those who offer those services.

Honestly, I have thought seriously about putting the drink down once and for all. The other day, I said to myself, “I am just done with this. All my problems are because of the drink. You know damn well better, Michael. Just do it! I think it was late at night. Yet, in the morning, I didn’t receive a response from a lawyer’s office (it had been a whole week), so I started to panic. Drink was on again. Today, I also received monetary support, so I can check that off the list. Things are starting to click into place.

Choosing a start date to stop drinking is part of my problem. I am NOT one to make a promise to anyone, including myself, unless I am absolutely SURE I will keep it. Then come the excuses. I know from experience I should just pick a date and stick to it. In the past (twice now), it happened when it happened. But the past two times, it was dire situations where I needed rehab and relocation. I am not doing either ever again. I know what I need to do, I just need to do it and stick to it permanently. This may or may not be the time. Only time will tell.