DR – October 7, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for October 7, 2017:

Daily Reflection

DAILY MONITORING

Continued to take personal inventory. . . .

— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 88

The spiritual axiom referred to in the Tenth Step—”every time we are disturbed, no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with us”—also tells me that there are no exceptions to it. No matter how unreasonable others may seem, I am responsible for not reacting negatively. Regardless of what is happening around me I will always have the prerogative, and the responsibility, of choosing what happens within me. I am the creator of my own reality.

When I take my daily inventory, I know that I must stop judging others. If I judge others, I am probably judging myself. Whoever is upsetting me most is my best teacher. I have much to learn from him or her, and in my heart, I should thank that person.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

Alcoholics who have derided religious people will be helped by such contacts. Being possessed of a spiritual experience, the alcoholic will find he has much in common with these people, though he may differ with them on many matters. If he does not argue about religion, he will make new friends and is sure to find new avenues of
usefulness and pleasure. He and his family can be a bright spot in such congregations. He may bring new hope and new courage to many a priest, minister, or rabbi, who gives his all to minister to our troubled world. We intend the foregoing as a helpful suggestion only. So far as we are concerned, there is nothing obligatory about it. As non-denominational people, we cannot make up others’ minds for them. Each individual should consult his own conscience.

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, The Family Afterward, pg. 131~

Keep It Simple

We never thought we could get old.-–Bob Dylan

Here we are no longer children. Yet we’re not quite grown up either. At least, we don’t always feels grown up. Our program helps us accept the stages of our life. And the child in our heart is getting happier. In some ways, we feel younger everyday.

We’re also starting to feel older and wiser. It feels good. We’re not so afraid of the world, because we’re learning better ways to live in it. We can learn by having friends who teach us to stay young at heart.

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, help me be the best I can be, at the age I am today.

Action for the Day:
Today, I’ll call an older friend and ask him or her this question: “What’s the most important thing you’ve learned about life since you were my age?”

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

You are looking at your life through a very sensible filter today. You want to make plans, but are hesitant to push the envelope now that the practical Taurus Moon is visiting your 11th House of Long-Term Goals. You’re aware of the widening gulf between your visions and reality. Oddly enough, this apparently unbridgeable gap gives you permission to go anywhere in your fantasies because you believe them to be unreachable. Much to your surprise, your daydreams create metaphysical scaffolding upon which you can build an amazing future you want to live in.

DR – October 6, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for October 6, 2017:

Daily Reflection

FACING OURSELVES

“. . . and Fear says, “You dare not look!”

— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 49

How often I avoided a task in my drinking days just because it appeared so large! Is it any wonder, even if I have been sober for some time, that I will act that same way when faced with what appears to be a monumental job, such as a searching and fearless moral inventory of myself? What I discover after I have arrived at the other side—when my inventory is completed—is that the illusion was greater than the reality. The fear of facing myself kept me at a standstill and, until I became willing to put pencil to paper, I was arresting my growth based on an intangible.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

“We alcoholics are undisciplined. So we let God discipline us… “

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Into Action, pg. 88~

Keep It Simple

If you do not tell the truth about yourself, you cannot tell it about other people.
—Virginia Woolf

Working the Twelve Steps helps us learn the truth. As we struggle with Step Four,
we learn the truth about ourselves. We learn even more about ourselves by doing
Steps Eight and Ten. When we admit the truth about ourselves, things come into
focus. Big changes happen.

As a result, we can see other people more clearly. We see bad sides in people we
thought were prefect. We see good sides in people we hated. We start to know that
everyone has to work hard to find what’s right for them. No one knows all the answers.
In short, we begin to trust others also who also are looking for the truth.

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, help me clearly see myself and others.

Action for the Day:
Today, I’ll think about how doing Step Ten keeps me clear about what’s going on in my life.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

An abrupt shift of direction at work may be upsetting at first, especially if you are comfortable with your current assignment. However, you quickly could see the big picture now, seizing the opportunity to become an integral part of the team. Don’t wait for the dust to settle; jump in without reservation. Risk-taking isn’t risky if you’re confident in your abilities. Today’s unexpected events can lead to tomorrow’s stability.

RIP Heart

 

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RIP Heart 1998 – 2017

 

I had known Heart for almost ten years before I began to take care of her. Her owner, my ex-sponsor, said he couldn’t care for both his cats anymore. I was in the process of moving, so I told my ex-sponsor I would take Heart with me. I moved Heart to my house in July 2017.

It was a difficult decision because she would be taken away from her sister, Sassy. It was also a long drive to my home. Lastly, my work schedule is so erratic I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to spend a lot of time with her. Despite these difficulties, I took her home and shared the last months of her life.

She was supposedly 19 years old, according to my ex-sponsor. Her sister has a range of medical problems in the last year. We thought that Sassy would pass away first, then Heart. Instead, it was the other way around. The bond between them is strong, so we both believe now that Heart has passed, Sassy will deteriorate quickly and pass away too.

In the last month, she gave me a scare. She began not drinking and eating. Then she developed wheezing. People were saying it could be a urinary tract infection while others were telling me it could be a simple cold.  The consensus was to take to a vet.

She was 19 years old, so I chose not to do so. She got better shortly after, so I spent more time with her. I knew that her passing would be soon. She started to not eat and drink four days ago; no matter what I put in front of her, she just walked away. The wheezing returned obstructing her breathing. I knew this was the time.

The previous episode I had already given her all my love and comfort. She knew this as she continued to stay by my side until the end. Yesterday, she sat right by her bed, unable to move but would pick up her head to drink some water. It ripped my heart I had to work but I couldn’t stand to watch her pass away. I didn’t know when it would happen, I just knew this was the last day I would see her.

When I got home from work the house was completely silent. She didn’t greet me at the door. I knew what had happened. You can never be prepared.

Even now as I write this the tears continue to flow down my cheeks. I am heartbroken beyond words. The house is silent. Memories, good memories just keep coming up tearing my heart. I can hardly function. I keep rolling back to her picture above, talking to her as if she is here. I miss her deeply. A part of me went with her and forever I will be changed.

DR – October 5, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for October 5, 2017:

Daily Reflection

YESTERDAY’S BAGGAGE

For the wise have always known that no one can make much of his life until self-searching becomes a regular habit, until he is able to admit and accept what he finds, and until he patiently and persistently tries to correct what is wrong.

— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 88

I have more than enough to handle today, without dragging along yesterday’s baggage too. I must balance today’s books, if I am to have a chance tomorrow. So I ask myself if I have erred and how I can avoid repeating that particular behavior. Did I hurt anyone, did I help anyone, and why? Some of today is bound to spill over into tomorrow, but most of it need not if I make an honest daily inventory.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

Try to remember that though God has wrought miracles among us, we should never belittle a good doctor or psychiatrist. Their services are often indispensable in treating a newcomer and in following his case afterward.

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, The Family Afterward, pg. 133~

Keep It Simple

It is often easier to fight for one’s principles than to live up to them—Adlai Stevenson

It easy to talk about our values. But when the clerk at the store gives extra change
my mistake, those values get put to the test. It feels good to read about spirituality
in a comfortable chair at home. But when we get stuck in a traffic jam, it’s hard to
live by our values.

That’s why practicing our program daily helps. Practice prepares us for the tough times.
Maybe we’ll feel like drinking or using other drugs once a year. Maybe we’ll only
get the wrong amount of change once a year. But if we live our values daily, we’ll be
ready when the hard times come. Remember: “It’s not enough to talk the talk. You
have to walk the walk.”

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, help me live this program each day. Help me “walk the walk.”

Action for the Day:
Today, I’ll do a Step Ten, Taking an inventory tells me if I’m living up to my values.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

There is more than one way to nurture your soul today. The extroverted Aries Full Moon fuels your 10th House of Career, motivating you to express your maternalistic inclinations on the job. Taking coworkers under your protective wing extends your love into the community. However, you must balance this need for external accomplishment by also acknowledging your more private side. Spending time with friends and family recharges your soul. Poet Emily Dickinson wrote, “That love is all there is, is all we know of love.”

DR – October 4, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for October 4, 2017:

Daily Reflection

A NECESSARY PRUNING

. . . we know that the pains of drinking had to come before sobriety, and emotional turmoil before serenity.

— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 94

I love spending time in my garden feeding and pruning my beautiful flowers. One day, as I was busily snipping away, a neighbor stopped by. She commented, “Oh! Your plants are so beautiful, it seems such a shame to cut them back.” I replied, “I know how you feel, but the excess must be removed so they can grow stronger and healthier.” Later I thought that perhaps my plants feel pain, but God and I know it’s part of the plan and I’ve seen the results. I was quickly reminded of my precious A.A. program and how we all grow through pain. I ask God to prune me when it’s time, so I can grow.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

Cling to the thought that, in God’s hands, the dark past is the greatest possession you have; the key to life and happiness for others. With it you can avert death and misery for them.

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, The Family Afterward, pg. 124~

Keep It Simple

Your three best doctors are faith, time, and patience.—From a fortune cookie
Only a short time ago, we were very sick. Getting sober made us so much better.
At first, when we stopped drinking and using other drugs, we thought we were fixed.

Then we began to see that we were not all that well.

No doctor can fix us. To get well, we need to keep living by the Twelve Steps and
the slogans of our program. We need to keep on trusting that our Higher Power
will heal us. One Day at a Time, day after day, we get stronger and happier.
And it never has to stop. Each day, we know ourselves a little better.

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, You are my best doctor. Help me remember that.

Action for the Day:
Today, I’ll do what the “doctor” suggests. I will talk with my sponsor about Step Ten today.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

You want to speak your mind but are afraid of stepping too far out of line today. You believe that others expect you to be supportive of their efforts even if you’re not totally on board with their plans. Nevertheless, you need to stay true to your fundamental values, despite any inconveniences you may create by sharing your thoughts. Ultimately, you won’t regret your actions now if you let your integrity do the talking.

DR – October 3, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for October 3, 2017:

Daily Reflection

Someone who knew what he was talking about once remarked that pain was the touchstone of all spiritual progress. How heartily we A.A.’s can agree with him. . . .

— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, pp. 93-94

When on the roller coaster of emotional turmoil, I remember that growth is often painful. My evolution in the A.A. program has taught me that I must experience the inner change, however painful, that eventually guides me from selfishness to selflessness. If I am to have serenity, I must STEP my way past emotional turmoil and its subsequent hangover, and be grateful for continuing spiritual progress.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

Now we go out to our fellows and repair the damage done in the past. We attempt to sweep away the debris which has accumulated out of our effort to live on self-will and run the show ourselves. If we haven’t the will to do this, we ask until it comes. Remember it was
agreed at the beginning we would go to any lengths for victory over alcohol.

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Into Action, pg.76~

Keep It Simple

That which is called firmness I a king is called stubbornness in a
donkey. —Lord Erskine

“Rigid” is a fancy word for “stubborn.” We act this way because
of our fear. When we’re afraid, we hang on to what we’re used to
doing. Our illness had us so scared, we were afraid of the new ideas
and new people. The only thing that didn’t scare us was using alcohol
or other drugs.

We also were stubborn when anyone tried to help us. We thought we
knew what was best. How silly our stubborn actions made us look!

How lonely they kept us.

But our stubborn behavior can teach us about our fears. We need to
be aware our stubbornness. Then we’ll be able to find out what we’re
afraid of—and do something about it.

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, help me know when I’m stubborn.

Action for the Day:
Today, I’ll work at accepting my stubbornness. I will use it to learn what I am afraid of today.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

You’re capable of seeing people from a very different perspective today. While your natural tendency might be to judge someone’s lifestyle choices based upon yours, you could easily take a more enlightened attitude and support them — even if you don’t approve of their behavior. Nurturing those you respect is your highest calling and you can operate at the top of your game now if you refrain from imposing your values on others. Artist Vincent van Gogh wrote, “Love is something eternal; the aspect may change, but not the essence.”

DR – October 2, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for October 2, 2017:

Daily Reflection

“THE ACID TEST”

As we work the first nine Steps, we prepare ourselves for the adventure of a new life. But when we approach Step Ten we commence to put our A.A. way of living to practical use, day by day, in fair weather or foul. Then comes the acid test: can we stay sober, keep in emotional balance, and live to good purpose under all conditions?

— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 88

I know the Promises are being fulfilled in my life, but I want to maintain and develop them by the daily application of Step Ten. I have learned through this Step that if I am disturbed, there is something wrong with me. The other person may be wrong too, but I can only deal with my feelings. When I am hurt or upset, I have to continually look for the cause in me, and then I have to admit and correct my mistakes. It isn’t easy, but as long as I know I am progressing spiritually, I know that I can mark my effort up as a job well done. I have found that pain is a friend; it lets me know there is something wrong with my emotions, just as a physical pain lets me know there is something wrong with my body. When I take the appropriate action through the Twelve Steps, the pain gradually goes away.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

“Burn the idea into the consciousness of every man that he can get
well regardless of anyone. The only condition is that he trust in
God and clean house.”

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Working With Others, pg. 98~

Keep It Simple

. . .and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.—Second half of Step Ten

We are human. We make mistakes. This is half the fun of being human.
Step Ten clearly tell us what to do when we are wrong: admit it. This
keeps us honest. It keeps us from hiding secrets that could cause us to
use alcohol or other drugs again.

Trust the gift we get from Step Ten. When we admit our wrongs, people
start to trust us again. We feel good, and people feel good being around us.
Even when they don’t like how we act, they can trust us to run our lives.
No one will ever be prefect. The closet we get is that we admit it when
we’re wrong. This is as good as it gets.

Prayer for the Day: Higher Power, help me admit my wrongs. Help me
earn the trust of others by being honest about my mistakes.

Action for the Day: I will list any wrongs I’ve done today. That way,
I’ll start tomorrow fresh and without any burdens from today.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

You may be overly sensitive to someone’s subtle attempts at controlling your actions today. You expect others to behave with the highest ethics, but their actions leave you wondering. Unfortunately, it’s hard to tell if people are really interfering with your plans or if a sudden brush with unsubstantiated paranoia is getting the best of you. Don’t let your self-doubt pull you down a rabbit hole when there are more important issues to address. Choose the most honorable path possible without being concerned about anyone else’s expectations. Author Robert Tew wrote, “Nothing and no one can make you happy until you alone make you happy.”

DR – October 1, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for October 1, 2017:

Daily Reflection

LEST WE BECOME COMPLACENT

It is easy to let up on the spiritual program of action and rest on our laurels. We are headed for trouble if we do, for alcohol is a subtle foe.

— ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85

When I am in pain it is easy to stay close to the friends I have found in the program. Relief from that pain is provided in the solutions contained in A.A.’s Twelve Steps. But when I am feeling good and things are going well, I can become complacent. To put it simply, I become lazy and turn into the problem instead of the solution. I need to get into action, to take stock: where am I and where am I going? A daily inventory will tell me what I must change to regain spiritual balance. Admitting what I find within myself, to God and to another human being, keeps me honest and humble.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

God alone can judge our sex situation. Counsel with persons is often desirable, but we let God be the final judge. We realize that some people are as fanatical about sex as others  are loose. We avoid hysterical thinking or advice.

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, How It Works, pg. 69~

Keep It Simple

“Continued to take personal inventory. . .” – First half of Step Ten

Step Ten tells us to keep looking at who we are. We ask ourselves, “Is what I’m doing okay?”

If it is, then we take pride in the way we acting. If not, we change our behavior. Step Ten keeps us in the right direction.

Throughout time, wise persons have told us to get to know ourselves. Step Ten helps us do this.

We become our own best friend. A true friend tells us when we’re doing right and when we’re messing up. Step Ten is our teacher. Even when we want to pretend we don’t know right from wrong, Step Ten reminds us that we do know. Step Ten is our daily reminder that we now have values—good values.

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, Step Ten is a lot of work. Keep me working. Help me form a habit. Let this habit be called “Step Ten.”

Action for the Day:
Today, I’ll continue to take a personal inventory. I will list what is good about me today and what I don’t like.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

You want to connect with a dear friend or lover today in ways that go deeper than just a casual meeting. Sinking into a juicy conversation is just what your heart desires. But you won’t need to stage a melodrama; an objective discussion about your dreams may be all you can ask for while the emotionally detached Aquarius Moon is on the scene. Poet Audre Lorde wrote, “Our feelings are our most genuine paths to knowledge.”

DR – September 30, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for September 30, 2017:

Daily Reflection

THE CIRCLE AND THE TRIANGLE

The circle stands for the whole world of A.A., and the triangle stands for A.A.’s Three Legacies of Recovery, Unity, and Service. Within our wonderful new world, we have found freedom from our fatal obsession.

— A.A. COMES OF AGE, p. 139

Early in my A.A. life, I became employed in its services and I found the explanation of our society’s logo to be very appropriate. First, a circle of love and service with a well-balanced triangle inside, the base of which represents our Recovery through the Twelve Steps. Then the other two sides, representing Unity and Service, respectively. The three sides of the triangle are equal. As I grew in A.A. I soon identified myself with this symbol. I am the circle, and the sides of the triangle represent three aspects of my personality: physical, emotional sanity, and spirituality, the latter forming the symbol’s base. Taken together, all three aspects of my personality translate into a sober and happy life.

Big Book Quote

Upon therapy for the alcoholic himself, we surely have no monopoly. Yet is is our great hope that all those who have as yet found no answer may begin to find one in the pages of this book and will presently join us on the high road to a new freedom.

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Foreword To Second Edition, pg.

Keep It Simple

If we follow the Twelve Steps, we’ll leave failure behind. We may have tried and tired to be sober, good people, but failed if we were doing it our way. Now is the time to stop listening to ourselves and start listening to pros, those who have gone before us.

When we follow their lead, exciting changes happen. First we stay sober. We regain self-respect. We meet people we respect and become friends. Our families start to trust us again. And why? Because we gave up doing it our way and listened. We listened to the experts.

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, allow me to become an expert listener.

Action for the Day:
Today, I’ll find someone I respect and ask how they work their program. I’ll ask them to share their wisdom.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

You may head out for a little adventure on your own today. You are eager to do something special with your newfound sense of freedom. Although you might miss the company of your loved ones, being able to do whatever you want without waiting for approval is exhilarating. Testing your limits encourages your personal growth, but you look forward to returning to the safety of your nest later on. Balancing your current desire to stretch your wings with your need for emotional security brings satisfaction on both sides of the equation.

DR – September 29, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for September 29, 2017:

Daily Reflection

EXACTLY ALIKE

Frequent contact with newcomers and with each other is the bright spot of our lives.

— ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 89

A man came to the meeting drunk, interrupted the speakers, stood up and took his shirt off, staggered loudly back and forth for coffee, demanded to talk, and eventually called the group’s secretary an unquotable name and walked out. I was glad he was there – once again I saw what I had been like. But I also saw what I still am, and what I still could be. I don’t have to be drunk to want to be the exception and the center of attention. I have often felt abused and responded abusively when I was simply being treated as a garden variety human being. The more the man tried to insist he was different, the more I realized that he and I were exactly alike.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

Practical experience shows that nothing will so much insure immunity from drinking as intensive work with other alcoholics.

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Working With Others, pg. 89~

Keep It Simple

Remember how we used to live? We were always trying to cover up some lie or mistake.

We were all like Al. Our energy was going into our illness, not into living. Gratitude is the key word in the program. Gratitude is being thankful for the getting to know our Higher Power. Remember what it was like to not
smile for all those years?

Recovery has given us back our smiles. What a relief! We can relax and enjoy our new life.

Prayer for the Day:
I pray that I’ll always remember what is was like when I was using. I pray that I’ll not take my recovery for granted. I prayer for gratitude.

Action For the Day:
I will list all the things the program and recovery have given me. I will smile about them today.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

You are fixated on a specific image that captures a romantic fantasy and you can’t get it out of your mind. Paradoxically, glimpses of perfect love vanish when you try to share your vision with someone else. In fact, the more you talk about it, the less clear it becomes. Luckily, communicator Mercury rides to the rescue once it enters objective Libra. Indulging your favorite dreams can be a pleasant diversion as long as you don’t confuse them with reality. Shakespeare wrote, “Expectation is the root of all heartache.”