As my regular readers of this site know, I have been out of work since July 2025 as I suffered a work-related injury. My employer has not paid any compensation since I have been out of work. They have denied various medical claims related to the work injury. Due to this I have hired a lawyer who has been working to resolve this claim. Finally, I have a worker’s compensation hearing on November 24, 2025. It is my hope that this claim whether denied or approved is put to rest. In the meantime, my anxiety is at an all time high.

First, I received a notice on Monday of this hearing though I have known about it two weeks before (as my records are available via the w/c website). My lawyer has NOT given me a call to information me of this hearing nor discuss how they are going to present this care and prepare me for anything I may have to say or not say. My relationship with this lawyer is NOT ideal. I just hope if they do not contact me, they show up to the hearing (which is virtual). If not, I will ask the w/c Board NOT to pay them their fees requested.

Second, I had conversations with people who have went through this process in the past. Two worked for my employer in the past. They were awarded judgement because the employer was not present at the hearing. A third, had their case prolonged for whatever reason. While I hope the first would happen in my case, my addicted brain always thinks the worst. Then I am left with what will I do if it is denied. There are times I can not think about it at all but it only lasts for a couple of hours and creeps back in. I’m dealing with it as best I can.

Third, I no longer have any monetary resources. My family member has graciously paid for two Walmart grocery deliveries to hold me over for the month. They have also paid my immediate bills (telephone, internet and electricity/gas only) last month and this month. In the past we have not had a good relationship and I hope that his changes. I have kept track of all monies given to me and will repay such when I am able to earn another income.

Lastly, I have been looking for a remote (work from home) job. This is another frustrating process because I have to sift through search results which don’t match “remote work from home data entry customer service” jobs. Yesterday I received two emails from two different companies who want me to pay for a TransUnion credit score verification. Nope not doing it. They don’t need that information nor will I pay even $1 for such information. I don’t know if they are a legitimate company or not nor am I going to spend hours trying to find out. Despite this I have applied for at least 30 postings in the last couple of weeks but have not had any responses except those noted above. I am currently using five websites that I trust and respond to any new postings I receive via email if applicable. It’s been a long time since I have applied for a job. Why is it so difficult to do so? Back in the day you send your resume and could call the company to check on the status of your application. Today, for many companies, they do not provide any contact information to follow up. I could research the companies but that would take time I rather put towards apply for jobs.

I just want this whole thing to end so I can get back to some sort of normal life.