Another work related post. In reality, a circle of events. The point here is there is always positive with the negative.
My gut, which I tell people is my Higher Power, was telling me, “Mike, careful, something is just not right.” After the last couple of days events at work, I decided the best alternative was to keep to myself. During dinner, my supervisor and the Director of Nursing (DON) paid me a visit on the floor. They wanted to talk. “F**k. What now?”, I was thinking.
In a nutshell, I was given a verbal warning for my time management skills. Apparently my co-workers feel that I’m to slow at doing my job. The DON also threw out I had mentioned I said, “I have until 11 p.m. to get all care done, so I’m not going to rush.” Oh, it gets better. Another incident happened the other day which was brought up (which due to confidentiality, I can’t disclose here). However, it ties into everything.
I completely shut down – mumbling, then not saying anything during the meeting.
Basically my employer is covering their own arse. While the employer attempted to ask my side, I refused to say anything because I already knew they had made up their mind pointing the blame at me. I was right.
Later in the evening, I switched floors to do care on some other residents. There is a another CNA I’ve been talking to which I have connected with. Her and I are on the same page. She recognizes my fellow co-workers, “out to get you”. I had disclosed to her I’m a recovering addict and my frustrations of the other day “driving me to drink”. She in turn talked to my supervisor, apparently after their meeting with me, about her concerns not only how staff is treating me but the truth of what is really going on in the facility. As we worked together, she was willing to help me with new time management skills she learned over her 12 years of experience. At the end of the day we chatted for about 45 minutes. It was a great relief to know that she too was a recovering addict knowing exactly what I was going through.
I also had a talk with my supervisor expressing my concerns. She reached out to me because “I saw that you shut down during the meeting, so I wanted to talk to you.” She is willing to address my concerns and try to change things. She is beginning to recognize the problems (sexism, lack of communication, no teamwork, etc.). After our discussion she asked that I don’t put in my letter of resignation (because that was exactly why I was talking to her in the first place). So I’m giving her a chance.
Despite the bad news at the beginning, I was relieved at the end of the day. I had felt completely alone. Now I know that I’m not. I have to be patient, willing to give it time for the wind to change in a positive direction.