Changing My Attitude

I slept for most of the day after a very hard night at work. There is a particular boss who works Thursday through Sunday who no matter how much I try just gets under my skin. It’s push, push, push; he just wants things to get done. While I get it, that’s his job, if he continues to push me to extremes, I’m going to snap. I’ve learned in situations like this, I am the one that needs to change my attitude.

“And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation—some fact of my life —unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life’s terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes. “

Big Book, Acceptance is the Answer, pg. 417

I’m a hard worker always putting my best foot forward to make sure I do what is required of me. I don’t do it for recognition; I do it because it’s required of me. I put in 150% most nights no matter how I’m feeling. But there are some nights I wanted to be left the F**K alone!

I have come to learn working with a particular person, who happens to be my boss, can be a very taxing physically, mentally and spiritually. After taking care of seven pallets of paper products and half my day is gone, my boss checks in for the second or third time, “Are you done yet? I need you over [here or there]”. An hour later he’s back again, “Where are you at?” After break I’m walking in with a greetings of, “Come on Michael, push, we’re all waiting for you.” We have some nerf sticks on feature in the kids section and I just want to get one and beat the guy into submission!

Apparently he does this with everyone. I’m not alone. So what do I do?

Keep doing what I do. He isn’t going to change. It’s not my job to change him. He and I both have a job to do at the end of the night. As long as I’m doing what’s expected of me by the end of the night, I’m good. If I can do more great. If I can’t oh well. I need to recognize I’m not going to get in “trouble” because I’m not doing my job. It’s that old fear creeping in saying, “You have to do this otherwise you’re going to get fired.” In reality, that is fare from the truth. If I do, for whatever reason, so be it. I haven’t done anything to warrant such an action, so I just need to accept it for what it is.

It’s a new day night? Let’s put this into action.

Grateful to be sober.

2 thoughts on “Changing My Attitude

  1. thesoberraccoonreturns

    I feel your pain with this one. I have had bosses in the past who get under my skin too. Usually the types I can’t stand are the ones on a power trip just because they are ‘the boss’. I wouldn’t bottle it up however – I did that with a job I had a few years ago and it made my anxiety sky rocket. But then again that boss was absolutely vile and would belittle people/me and really make me feel like shit in front of everyone and just generally be a total bitch. I do think some people get a kick out of it if they know they are making you annoyed/upset and then tend to do it more. Especially when they know you can’t say anything or they can fire you. Maybe your boss is picking up on vibes that they get under your skin? Also, it never hurts to keep an eye out for other potential jobs in the area, just in case xxx

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  2. Most of the people I work with don’t like his management style either. One of my co-workers today noticed him, again, telling me this and that. She could see the swelling anger in me. She took me aside saying, “Don’t take it personally, he does it with everyone. Just do what you can and leave for the day. Take anything he says with a grain of salt.” The end of lunch and for the rest of the day I didn’t hear nor see him but I also saw my co-worker talking to him (so me thinks she told him to back off ‘cus she does that for people). It is what it is. Got through today. Tomorrow is not here yet. There isn’t much around here paying anything like WM. Seriously, the job I want and recently was asked to apply I wouldn’t take because it pays less than what I make now. And the employer is the company I’ve been living under for the last 18 months, so I have issues with that too. But I do occasionally scan the employment ads (I did before this whole COVID thingy).

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