I slept for most of the day after a very hard night at work. There is a particular boss who works Thursday through Sunday who no matter how much I try just gets under my skin. It’s push, push, push; he just wants things to get done. While I get it, that’s his job, if he continues to push me to extremes, I’m going to snap. I’ve learned in situations like this, I am the one that needs to change my attitude.
“And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation—some fact of my life —unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life’s terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes. “Big Book, Acceptance is the Answer, pg. 417
I’m a hard worker always putting my best foot forward to make sure I do what is required of me. I don’t do it for recognition; I do it because it’s required of me. I put in 150% most nights no matter how I’m feeling. But there are some nights I wanted to be left the F**K alone!
I have come to learn working with a particular person, who happens to be my boss, can be a very taxing physically, mentally and spiritually. After taking care of seven pallets of paper products and half my day is gone, my boss checks in for the second or third time, “Are you done yet? I need you over [here or there]”. An hour later he’s back again, “Where are you at?” After break I’m walking in with a greetings of, “Come on Michael, push, we’re all waiting for you.” We have some nerf sticks on feature in the kids section and I just want to get one and beat the guy into submission!
Apparently he does this with everyone. I’m not alone. So what do I do?
Keep doing what I do. He isn’t going to change. It’s not my job to change him. He and I both have a job to do at the end of the night. As long as I’m doing what’s expected of me by the end of the night, I’m good. If I can do more great. If I can’t oh well. I need to recognize I’m not going to get in “trouble” because I’m not doing my job. It’s that old fear creeping in saying, “You have to do this otherwise you’re going to get fired.” In reality, that is fare from the truth. If I do, for whatever reason, so be it. I haven’t done anything to warrant such an action, so I just need to accept it for what it is.
It’s a new day night? Let’s put this into action.
Grateful to be sober.