The last couple of days I’ve had some, let’s say, interesting things happen. People out of the blue have called me who I haven’t spoken to in months. I’ve had vivid dreams of people I haven’t seen in months or years. The last five people who usually drive me to and from work have lost their jobs. Also I’m been ‘out of sorts’ as of late. I’m not sure what is going on but I hope it passes soon.
I don’t get phone calls from anyone accept for scammers. So typically my phone is on vibrate most of the time. But I still have old contacts in my address book. For some reason five people called me out of the blue and four of them said, “Oh I must have pocket dialed you, sorry.” One was drunk as a skunk so I told him to call me some other time.
The last couple of nights I haven’t slept well either. I keep having vivid dreams of people I use to know either calling me or I’m at an unknown place and suddenly bumping into them. It’s weird and I jolt out of bed like, “What the heck???”
I also just realized five people at work who use to drive me occasionally no longer work there in the last year. Three just disappeared not to return and two were fired for attendance. But for a place like WM my co-workers change constantly.
Which brings me to my current state of mind. I’ve been ‘out of sorts’ late. I really have no idea what is going on but I can’t focus. I have interest in school anymore. My scripting class is boring, as well as my history class. I have no initiative to do assignments until the last minute.
My memory is all out of sorts, like paying bills. First, most of my bills are automatic or paid in advance. But recently I get struck with fear I haven’t payed something and went through them several times just to make sure. But my anxiety level went down when I was sure everything was taken care of.
I think I answered my own question just now. Fear or living in the past? Hmm. I’m going to have to work on this. Perhaps I just needed to write it down. I wonder where I learned that from? *chuckle*
On a side note, I wish Winter was over. For the first time ever, I’m not enjoying all this snow and cold temperatures. I want Spring to get here soon. But that isn’t going to happen, sadly.