DR – September 8, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for September 8, 2017:

Daily Reflection

We asked His protection and care with complete abandon. — ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 59

— ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 59

I could not manage my life alone. I had tried that road and failed. My “ultimate sin” dragged me down to the lowest level I have ever reached and, unable even to function, I accepted the fact that I desperately needed help. I stopped fighting and surrendered entirely to God.

Only then did I start growing! God forgave me. A Higher Power had to have saved me, because the doctors doubted that I would survive. I have forgiven myself now and I enjoy a freedom I have never before experienced. I’ve opened my heart and mind to Him. The more I learn, the less I know — a humbling fact — but I sincerely want to keep growing. I enjoy serenity, but only when I entrust my life totally to God. As long as I am honest with myself and ask for His help, I can maintain this rewarding existence.

Just for today, I strive to live His will for me — soberly.
I thank God that today I can choose not to drink.
Today, life is beautiful!

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

“To be doomed to an alcoholic death or to live on a spiritual basis are not always easy alternatives to face.”

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, We Agnostics, Page 44~

Keep It Simple

I have an intense desire to return to the womb—Anybody’s ! —Woody Allen

Some days the world just doesn’t seem safe. Maybe a friend died and you are hurting. Maybe you argued with a loved one. You just want somebody to take care of you. You want to feel safe and warm.

Turn to the spiritual part of the program. Let your Higher Power hold you with warm, loving care. Pray. Pray to feel the programs will find you. Why? Because you’ve opened your heart to recovery. To be loved, you have to open up to love.

Prayer for the Day: I pray for an open heart. I pray that love of the program will find me and comfort me. Higher Power, I need Your love as a child needs the love of parents.

Action for the Day: Today, I’ll list three times the world has felt unsafe. I’ll meditate on how things would have been different if I had turned to my Higher Power for comfort.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

You’re not afraid to take a risk today but may later discover that you stepped on a hornet’s nest. You might inadvertently do something that hurts someone’s feelings and rather than telling you, they could throw a temper tantrum. Two can play this game; however, you may be more self-controlled than everyone else now. Keep in mind that expressing an emotion and then letting it go is healthier than just burying it deeper in denial. No one can fault you for being your authentic self.

DR – September 7, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for September 7, 2017:

Daily Reflection

“OUR SIDE OF THE STREET”

We are there to sweep off our side of the street, realizing that nothing worth while can be accomplished until we do so, never trying to tell him what he should do. His faults are not discussed. We stick to our own.

— ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, pp. 77-78

I made amends to my dad soon after I quit drinking. My words fell on deaf ears since I had blamed him for my troubles. Several months later I made amends to my dad again. This time I wrote a letter in which I did not blame him nor mention his faults. It worked, and at last, I understood! My side of the street is all that I’m responsible for and — thanks to God and A.A. — it’s clean for today.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

“…the actual or potential alcoholic, with hardly an exception, will be absolutely unable to stop drinking on the basis of self knowledge. This is a point we wish to emphasize and re emphasize, to smash home upon our alcoholic readers as it has been revealed to us out of bitter experience.”

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, More About Alcoholism, pg. 39~

Keep It Simple

A lair needs a good memory. — Quintilian

Many of us wasted a lot of energy trying to keep track of whom we had told what. For example, we’d tell our boss one story and our family another. Then we’d work hard to make sure they never met. How wonderful to be done with that way of life! We now have a life based on honesty. We can now be ourselves where we go. Our program tells us that to get sober, we must live a life of strict honesty. Honesty is our rule to get and stay sober. Life is much more simple this way. We can relax and think of the happy details of life.

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, help me to live honestly. Being honest brings me closer to You. Help me become closer to You.

Action for the Day:
Today, I’ll read the first three pages of Chapter Five in Alcoholics Anonymous (Third Edition). Here, I’ll learn why honesty is so important to my recovery.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

You understand the importance of initiating action, yet you may be concerned that you’re reacting too quickly. The truth is you might not get as much finished in the long run if you throw caution to the wind today. Nevertheless, you could err on the other side of the equation and let a wonderful opportunity pass without seizing it. Obviously, your secret sauce du jour can’t be too hot or too cool. Everything will eventually turn out in your favor if you can figure out what is “just right.” Just like Goldilocks, you too can find the sweet spot if you’re persistent.

DR – September 6, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for September 6, 2017:

Daily Reflection

REMOVING THREATS TO SOBRIETY

. . . except when to do so would injure them or others.
— ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 59

Step Nine restores in me a feeling of belonging, not only to the human race but also to the everyday world. First, the Step makes me leave the safety of A.A., so that I may deal with non-A.A. people “out there,” on their terms, not mine. It is a frightening but necessary action if I am to get back into life. Second, Step Nine allows me to remove threats to my sobriety by healing past relationships. Step Nine points the way to a more serene sobriety by letting me clear away past wreckage, lest it bring me down.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

It works – it really does.

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Into Action, pg. 88~

Keep It Simple

Addiction is answering the spiritual calling inside us by going to the wrong address. —Chris Ringer

Where can we go to feel better, to feel spiritually alive? Not to alcohol or other drugs. Not to compulsive spending, gambling, or sex. Not to overeating or overworking. When we turn to these things to feel better, we’re trading one addiction for another, we’re going to the “wrong address.”

What is the right address? Our inner needs. Our Higher Power. Our recovery program. Our friends. Soon, we become part of a network of “safe addresses.”

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, keep me on the right path. I don’t want to go to the wrong address anymore.

Action for the Day:
Today, I’ll make sure I have at least three “right address” in my wallet or purse. I’ll list names and day and evening phone numbers of people who will love and help.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

You’re being asked to reach further than ever in your quest for meaning. But exploring new possibilities at home or at work doesn’t negate your need for emotional security. Nevertheless, the Pisces Full Moon brings magic to your 9th House of Distant Horizons, urging you to extend your vision beyond your mundane concerns. There’s no reason to resist the temptation to fantasize about things you never thought possible. Thankfully, you’re not required to act on every dream; however, imagining your life without the restraints of reality could open doors that previously remained closed.

DR – September 5, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for September 5, 2017:

Daily Reflection

EMOTIONAL BALANCE

Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, . . .

— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 83

When I survey my drinking days, I recall many people whom my life touched casually, but whose days I troubled through my anger and sarcasm. These people are untraceable, and direct amends to them are not possible. The only amends I can make to those untraceable individuals, the only “changes for the better” I can offer, are indirect amends made to other people, whose paths briefly cross mine. Courtesy and kindness, regularly practiced, help me to live in emotional balance, at peace with myself.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

Psychologists are inclined to agree with us. We have spent thousands of dollars for examinations. We know but few instances where we have given these doctors a fair break. We have seldom told them the whole truth nor have we followed their advice. Unwilling to be honest with these sympathetic men, we were honest with no one else. Small wonder many in the medical profession have a low opinion of alcoholics and their chance for recovery.

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Into Action, pg. 73~

Keep It Simple

I have never seen a greater monster or miracle than myself.—-Montaigne

We know we’ve hurt people. We’ve heard our family cry out from pain we’ve caused them. Because of alcohol and other drugs, we acted like monsters.

But we now live surrounded with love. We now work to make this world better. Recovery is a miracle. The rebirth of our spirit is our miracle.

It’s no wonder we love life the way we do! We’ve been given a second chance. Our joy is overflowing. Our Higher Power must love us very much.

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, help me with the monster that lives within me. I pray it will never again be let out.

Action for the Day:
Today, I’ll see myself as a miracle. I’ll be grateful for my new life.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

A recent bout with self-doubt has brought you into new territory. Although you’re unsure about what stretches out in front of you, you’re certain that there’s no way to return to your old familiar ground. Oddly enough, your worry about facing the unknown is tempered with a dose of excitement now. Don’t try to resolve all the tension; instead channel your current stress into your work where it will have the greatest positive impact. Author Mark Danielewski wrote, “Maturity, one discovers, has everything to do with the acceptance of not knowing.”

My Labor Day Weekend 2017

I vowed to have fun this weekend. It may be the only weekend off I may have this month. It was a rough week at work, so I wanted to “let go” in a good way. Just resting or enjoying something for myself was the goal. My goal was accomplished.

Saturday I woke up not in the best of moods. I was physically, mentally and spiritually drained. The events of the prior week at work had beat me down. I didn’t like it at all! I had to do something positive.

There is a local casino that I’ve not been fond of since its opening. The people tend to be rude, the food always sucks, the games never pay out. But there isn’t really anything else to do within a short distance. I also didn’t want to isolate myself at home the whole weekend.

I planned on eating at the buffet, playing some poker to waste time, then perhaps hit a slot of two just for kicks. Didn’t bother with the buffet. While it was free for me, I rather cook something tasteful at home. I stepped in the poker room for two hours to walk out with $50. So I went to the slot machines, lost my $50 and some more (but not boat loads). Nothing changes with this place. How they survive and expand is beyond me.

Since I was close to a good grocery store, I decided to go shopping for the first time since I’ve moved to my new place in July. It’s quite a big store, so I started at one end going isle by isle. I had no plan, no list, it was all spontaneous. As I got close to 1/2 down the rows, I started getting nervous as my cart started to get full. Did I have enough money? Luckily the rest of the store wasn’t things I was interested in getting, so I headed out. The goal was $150. I left with plenty of groceries probably for the month at $120. Next time I will plan and see how to shop with coupons.

The rest of my weekend was spent at home. It began to rain Saturday night. I decided to indulge in some episodes of TV shows I watch: Game of Thrones, Season 7; Big Brother, Season 19; and Master Chef, Season 8. I fell asleep a couple of times, woke back up for a few hours, fell back asleep again. After repeating that three times, I finally got done with all my shows and just went to bed for the night. Oh did I sleep good!

Despite my cat’s howling for me to get up and feed her, I remained in bed until 10 a.m. While I love my cat, her previous owner has taught her some unbearable habits. I’m trying to break those habits to the best of my ability. However, I may be barking up the wrong tree; these habits are so ingrained and she is so old, I doubt I’l be successful. But its worth a try – for my sanity.

Not a bad weekend, but I wish I took the time to do some housework. I know its going to be struggle to do it this week. Most likely, I’ll procrastinate all of it until Wednesday, my next day off. But I’m going to make an effort NOT to do that and do at least ONE thing when I get home after work. Perhaps by Wednesday, I won’t have anything to do, thus I can recharge my batteries.

DR – September 4, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for September 4, 2017:

Daily Reflection

RECONSTRUCTION

Yes, there is a long period of reconstruction ahead. . . .— ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 83

The reconstruction of my life is the prime goal in my recovery as I avoid taking that first drink, one day at a time. The task is most successfully accomplished by working the Steps of our Fellowship. The spiritual life is not a theory; it works, but I have to live it. Step Two started me on my journey to develop a spiritual life; Step Nine allows me to move into the final phase of the initial Steps which taught me how to live a spiritual life. Without the guidance and strength of a Higher Power, it would be impossible to proceed through the various stages of reconstruction. I realize that God works for me and through me. Proof comes to me when I realize that God did for me what I could not do for myself, by removing that gnawing compulsion to drink. I must continue daily to seek God’s guidance. He grants me a daily reprieve and will provide the power I need for reconstruction.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

Both you and the new man must walk day by day in the path of spiritual progress. If you persist, remarkable things will happen.

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Working With Others, pg. 100~

Keep It Simple

In my view, we of this world are pupils in great school of life.  ~ Bill W.

Our addiction has taught me much. It has taught us how far we can get from ourselves, our Higher Power, and those who love us.. Hopefully, we’ve learned we can’t go it alone. Do I allow myself to learn from the bad things that happened?

Recovery has much to teach us too. We need to be students of life. We need to be open to learning. Our spirits can grow if we’re willing to do three things: First, we listen. Second, we think about what we’ve learned. Third, we turn what we’ve learned into action. Listening, combined with thought and action, will help us learn life’s best lessons.

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, You’ll test me so I can learn. Help me accept the tasks You give me. And help me learn from them.

Action for the Day:
I will view today as a class. I will do three things—listen, think, act.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

You may be visibly relieved when you accept the fact that you’re not required to know everything about everything. Fortunately, there is plenty of valuable information at your disposal today, and it’s up to you to put it to good use. However, discerning the truth is a complicated task now. Instead of trying to play the role of gatekeeper, just remain open to the data you receive. Reality will sort itself out as long as your intentions remain honorable.

DR – September 3, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for September 3, 2017:

Daily Reflection

We feel a man is unthinking when he says sobriety is enough. 

— ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 82

When I reflect on Step Nine, I see that physical sobriety must be enough for me. I need to remember the hopelessness I felt before I found sobriety, and how I was willing to go to any lengths for it. Physical sobriety is not enough for those around me, however, since I must see that God’s gift is used to build a new life for my family and loved ones. Just as importantly, I must be available to help others who want the A.A. way of life.

I ask God to help me share the gift of sobriety so that its benefits may be shown to those I know and love.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

We have entered the world of the Spirit. Our next function is to grow in understanding and effectiveness. This is not an overnight matter. It should continue for our lifetime.

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Into Action, pg. 84~

Keep It Simple

You will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. . . — Alcoholics Anonymous

As we work the Steps, we fix our broken lives. Many things in our new life have been painful. Our addiction to alcohol or drugs made it all worse. But if things hadn’t gotten so bad we might not have gotten into recovery.

We have changed so much! We have learned so much about life, our Higher Power, and ourselves in order to fix our lives. We can’t act like nothing in the past matters. It does matter because it brought us to this new life. And is better already!

Prayer for the Day: Higher Power, help me face my past and heal the wounds—my wounds and others’ wounds.

Action for the Day: Today, I’ll three things I’m ashamed of. How can I make amends for them when I work Step Nine? I will call my sponsor if I need help.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

Your thoughts are turning to mundane matters today, particularly those you recently let slide without final resolution. However, you prefer to make use of your free time now by demonstrating your love for friends and family. You’re aware that your actions speak louder than words, but you find yourself repeating what you previously said anyway. You’re worried that people will misinterpret your intentions and you could needlessly obsess over the details of your message. Author Zora Neale Hurston wrote, “It was not death she feared. It was misunderstanding.”

A Weekend of Relaxation & Positivity

Another frustrating week is now over, thank the Gods! On Thursday and Friday, I felt like I was an inactive volcano ready to explode. I’m just glad I wasn’t scheduled this weekend because I have plans of my own I need to get done around the house. So I’m planning a weekend of relaxation and positivity.

One, I am not going to rush to do anything. I’m going to relax. For the last couple of weeks, my blood pressure is a little high (the top number or diastolic is in the 130’s or 140’s) and my pulse is way down to the 50’s. I’m on medications for blood pressure but I haven’t been eating good, healthy food, nor have I been getting good rest.

The biggest contributing factor is work. We all love to hate work, so I know I’m not the only one feeling this way.  While I love my work and the care I give to my residents, as a CNA, I get so annoyed, frustrated and just plain MAD at the bull**** .

Most of my residents have some form of dementia. But we also have those temporarily staying for rehabilitation. Most of them are also elderly, set in their ways and can be very needy at times. Many times I’m running around “like a chicken with no head”!

There was a management change a few months back. However, the new DON (Director of Nursing) hasn’t really got a handle on things (in my opinion). , thus bring in an ADON (Assistant Director of Nursing) and a few Supervisors. One supervisor, for me, is like a dream come true, clamping down on policies and procedures that should be followed at all times. While she’s doing her best, she asked for my patience for coming changes.

Enough about work since I vowed not even to think about work this weekend. I have a few things on my list I need to get done. For instance, I need to clean this house. Since I’ve been work so much lately (50 – 60 hours per week), things are getting a tad bit untidy around here. I don’t like it, at all! Second, I’m going grocery shopping. I mean really spending money on some good food that will last me a while.  I spend approximately $10 per day on fast food for dinner every night. It’s not healthy and I told myself I was going to start cooking more when I moved to my new place.

I have a few things on my list I need to get done. For instance, I need to clean this house. Since I’ve been work so much lately (50 – 60 hours per week), things are getting a tad bit untidy around here. I don’t like it, at all! Second, I’m going grocery shopping. I mean really spending money on some good food that will last me a while.  I spend approximately $10 per day on fast food for dinner every night. It’s not healthy and I told myself I was going to start cooking more when I moved to my new place. Third, I’m going to make a short trip to the casino, so I can get out and have some fun. They are luring me with coupons of free play and a free buffet for lunch, so why not? It’s a very dreary day anyway.

Right now I have some meditation music on my tablet playing with some sandalwood incense burning in the background. I think I’m going to meditate a while when Heart (my cat) goes back to sleep and stops meowing at me to love her (LOL). Perhaps take a shower, then head to the casino for some lunch and some fun.

 

DR – September 2, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for September 2, 2017:

Daily Reflection

FINDING “A REASON TO BELIEVE”

The willingness to grow is the essence of all spiritual development. 

— AS BILL SEES IT, p. 171

A line from a song goes, “. . . and I look to find a reason to believe . . .” It reminds me that at one time I was not able to find a reason to believe that my life was all right. Even though my life had been saved by my coming to A.A., three months later I went out and drank again. Someone told me: “You don’t have to believe. Aren’t you willing to believe that there is a reason for your life, even though you may not know yourself what that reason is, or that you may not sometimes know the right way to behave?” When I saw how willing I was to believe there was a reason for my life, then I could start to work on the Steps. Now when I begin with, “I am willing. . . ,” I am using the key that leads to action, honesty, and an openness to a Higher Power moving through my life.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

“Unless one’s family expresses a desire to live upon spiritual principles we think we ought not to urge them. We should not talk incessantly to them about spiritual matters. They will change in time. Our behavior will convince them more than our words. We must remember that ten or twenty years of drunkenness would make a skeptic out of anyone.”

~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Into Action, pg. 83~

Keep It Simple

“… except when to do so would injure them or others.”—Second half of Step Nine

We have to be careful when we make amends. We must think about people’s well being. Can we help heal by being direct with them? Or would it hurt them again? At times, this means not making direct amends. Sometimes, it’s better to make some other kind of amend. If you’re not sure how to make amends to someone, ask for advice from your sponsor and your group. And pray. Over time, you’ll know if making direct amends is the right thing to do. Remember, Step Nine means we’re responsible for our actions. In recovery, our actions can be healing. Healing takes place when we love ourselves and others. And love is what heals us.

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, I’ve hurt people in the past. Please use me now to help those people heal. Give me good judgment, courage, and good timing.

Action for the Day:
I will never be able to make direct amends to some people. I will think of amends I can make to them. I can pray daily for their healing.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

A sudden shift in plans might include more people than you bargained for today. Red-hot Mars is heating up shocking Uranus in your 10th House of Status, spontaneously pulling you into the public eye, even if you were imagining a quiet day at home. Acknowledging your mixed feelings about swimming in the social flow doesn’t necessarily lead to isolation. Rather than shying away from the spotlight, a shift in your current attitude allows you to bask in the love of those who wish to be a part of your life.

DR – September 1, 2017

Daily Recovery Readings for September 1, 2017:

Daily Reflection

WILLINGNESS TO GROW

If more gifts are to be received, our awakening has to go on. — AS BILL SEES IT, p. 8

Sobriety fills the painful “hole in the soul” that my alcoholism created. Often I feel so physically well that I believe my work is done. However, joy is not just the absence of pain; it is the gift of continued spiritual awakening. Joy comes from ongoing and active study, as well as application of the principles of recovery in my everyday life, and from sharing that experience with others. My Higher Power presents many opportunities for deeper spiritual awakening. I need only to bring into my recovery the willingness to grow. Today I am ready to grow.

From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

Big Book Quote

“Step Eleven suggests prayer and meditation. We shouldn’t be shy on this matter of prayer. Better men than we are using it constantly.”

Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, Into Action, pg. 8

Keep It Simple

Made direct amends to such people wherever possible . . . —First half of Step Nine

In our illness, we harmed people. In Step Nine, we are to make amends. Making amends is about asking people we have harmed what we need to do to set things right. But making amends is more than saying, “I’m sorry.” If you ran a store and someone had stolen five dollars, you wouldn’t want them to just say, ”I’m sorry.” You’d want the person to pay back the money. The same is true with amends.

Many people we’ve harmed ask only that we don’t repeat our mistakes. Respect their wishes. Step Nine has healed many wounds. Step Nine allows us to grow up. Step Nine help us regain faith in ourselves. Remember, the best amend we make to all is to stay sober.

Prayer for the Day:
Higher Power, give me courage. Help me face the trouble caused by my disease. Make me ready to help other heals from the harm I’ve caused.

Action for the Day:
Today, I’ll pray that those I’ve harmed will heal. I will be responsible for my actions.

Daily Horoscope – Cancer

It seems as if everyone is in your face today, and an excess of passion is lurking at every gate that leads to another conversation. Ironically, the fantasies you try to hide are the very same ones that are responsible for making others seem so intense now. No doubt, a cooling off period would relieve the tension but it’s challenging to untangle your emotional webs. Rather than participating in someone’s melodrama directly, re-examining your core beliefs adds a layer of space between you and issues that are not yours to resolve. Author Joyce Rachelle wrote, “If people keep stepping on you, wear a pointy hat.”