Over the last couple of weeks I have received several inquires regarding my personal life. On occasion I post things going on publicly to help reduce the stress I’m going through. I am grateful for the support I receive privately when such posts are shared.

I am still plagued by the scam I was unfortunately involved in January. It is my hope that very soon this will all be a thing of the past. But until that happens it still haunts me daily. I was not my fault at all. The scammers had all the information they needed. Once they verified who I was, the did their deed. I only verified who I was thinking they represented T-Mobile. I only verified my name, no other personal information. But that was all they needed. Now, I do NOT answer my phone unless I get a voicemail and I call the person back. Do I still get such calls – yup and T-Mobile does NOT tag them as potential scam calls!!!

I guess what hurts me more is I am an avid watcher of Scammer Payback. Based on what I have viewed a hundred times, these scams keep getting more resourceful, as in my case. I was naive enough to believe something would NOT happen to me. I hung up, again not giving any personal information, when I got a sense the call was goingThey just need your name and BAM you are screwed. Hence, my recent post about call centers in Southeast Asia where most, if not all, scammers are located. The United States needs to ban companies from using call centers outside the United States in order to protect its own citizens. The FBI reported that billions of dollars was lost in scams last year, yet there is nothing in place to protect us. Due to this whole fiasco, I am in financial ruin and it will take me years to take care of this whole mess. Everyone points the finger at me. Honestly, I want to hire a lawyer, yet I don’t have the resources. What would they be able to do for me? Absolutely nothing. Anyway – end of rant (again)

Due to the above this site may be taken down next month. It pains me greatly something like this might happen. But it’s something I have to face. I pay $50 a year to keep this site active. No, I am NOT asking for any money. I am simply facing reality.

Due to a work injury in March, I have been on worker’s comp since July. They pay 2/3 of my previous income which wasn’t awarded until Dec 2025 and just continued last week I will be honest, I receive $650/week. My rent is $700. I only pay necessary bills. My electricity(gas included) bill just DOUBLED due to National Grid’s price hike and “smart meters” (<–that is another whole issue!) totaling another $200/month. T-Mobile (which I am cancelling and going with Mint Mobile (<–does anyone have such service? Is it good? Leave a comment please) most likely next month. Otherwise that is another $125/mo. All I have is internet service through Spectrum which is another $110. There is a loan I have outstanding costing me another $150/mo. So if you do the math that leaves me almost NOTHING left. Thankfully my student loans are on a $0 payment plan due to my income but may change due to the current government administration but I haven’t received written confirmation of such. Also, I now receive SNAP (food stamps) due to my w/c case. Each month I have to juggle what to pay and what to pass until next month, doing it over and over paying late fees in between. Just so I can get non-SNAP groceries and do laundry. I spent decades getting my credit back to a “fair” standing only to have it plummet to really bad levels which I don’t even check anymore. It’s just a really bleak picture.

Depressed, yes. Drink, yes. I am going to finally see my regular doctor next week to help with those issues. I could ask to be placed in a rehab again but in reality that is NOT going to help. I know what I need to do. I just don’t do it. I have given up all hope sadly. I know the consequences of my decisions. What bothers me even more – I’m okay with it. I’m making my own crap and sitting in it. I do take responsibility for it.

I do have a sliver of hope things may change. I recognize it’s going to take a long time to recover. I just do what I have to do each day to survive to the next day and do it over and over.

Again, I do appreciate all the feedback. This is just a decision I have made.

Now I have to run to yet another w/c doctor’s appointment. An important one. Hopefully, the orthopedic doctor I see today will give me some hope in regards to my injury. But I am not to sure that will happen based on previous tests already taken. But who knows, as someone may intervene (**looks to the sky for inspiration**).

I hope everyone has a good day and keeps me in your prayers. As always, any comments are always appreciated (unless they are truly distasteful or irrelevant/spam). I will try to keep this site up and running depending on the circumstances in the future.